diary of derangement

I started this personal comm a while ago but I think I am going to revive it: oraclebirds. It is a comm for comic reading so reading reactions, thoughts, reviews, ratings, future reading, etc. I need a place to organize my thoughts on reading comics it is too scatterbrained atm >_>. but uh. it is open for members so hmu maybe?

I have been thinking about my personal writing a lot as well. Just had a pretty heavy talk about my future and present with my parents over brunch today. My parents have a lot of thoughts about content creation, and how in our current society, a public face for your content creation is needed if you want to break through in the creative world. You need a concrete profile and you need to be able to sell your portfolio.

My parents are pretty modern, all things considered. They encouraged me for starting a blog for my personal writing. I have thought about it, but never really concretely, nor have I plans to actually start shit like that up. If I want to even start attempting doing this, I need to start up an Instagram as well, do short stories, start my fantasy/magic worldbuilding book, my character profiles.... and mix that with comic thoughts. Maybe book reviews as well? 

Anyway. I think it's cool if I show my passion to the world, and not only in small closed circles on Tumblr, Discord and here on Dreamwidth.

Oh, and another thing my parents and I talked about over brunch: I got my official autism diagnosis. So.... yay?

I honestly don't know how I should feel about this. I always thought that I leaned more towards ADHD. We are going to go and speak to the people who diagnosed me, do a little bit of recap and discussion. On one hand, it explains a lot about me. On the other, I am not sure about the analysis of the doctor on my personality.... but they're the professional right? But also, I am being diagnosed quite late. But, being diagnosed late is quite normal with girls. Again, not sure how to feel about this. Apparently I have trouble with empathizing. IDK if that is true or if I am just terribly socially awkward. Sigh. In short, I am far from done on this road of developmental disabilities....

Anyway, in the future I am going to do more comic posting on oraclebirds. On my journal I will still do comic postings, but it is going to be a lot more ramblings and shitposting <3.